Tuesday, August 17, 2010

So... not sure who is reading this. If you are and you are wondering what's going on. I'm asking myself the same question! We came across a "situation" of two little boys in the Colorado foster system who were legally free and ready to be adopted. We were prayerfully and seriously considering doing it. And for Jason to even consider this is a BIG deal. He had made his opinion very clear on adopting again. I really felt like Shaun needed a brother who looked like him and Jason wasn't interested.
Well after we got the full report on these beautiful little boys we realized we were in way over our heads. There was no way we could give what they needed. That same week Jason was gone a few days and some of Shaun's old, fearful behaviors started creeping up. I realized what having more people moving in and out of our lives might do to Shaun right now.
Again, I don't know what's going on. Is God preparing us to adopt again? Is He opening Jason's heart to this? Is He telling us to wait and prepare our hearts and our children over time for future foster care? Anyone have any answers let me know! We are waiting and watching. I want to constantly be pursuing God's will and am grateful He sees the whole picture when I can only see the pieces.